So things have begun to slowly come to head. The weather here in North Carolina is like something out of a dream and I'm glad that both the b/f and I have been able to enjoy the more positive aspects of this job. Such as spending a bit of time at the beach, going to the 2nd biggest Seafood festival in North Carolina, going to Mumfest yesterday in the historic town of Newbern and just being able to go outside without a sweater when everyone in Colorado is battling sleet and frost!
That aside, I am still quite bummed I'll be missing out on Autumn, so I am hoping that on our drive back, we will be able to observe the change throughout the country. One place I'm quite looking forward to is driving through Kentucky, because it is gorgeous and has no lack of foliage.
I was really hoping to visit Virginia to attend an event we were invited to by an older couple we met at a hotel here. Because that is where the concept of Autumn undoubtably makes Colorado's attempt at Fall look like child's play. Unfortunately, we have encountered some additional impediments to our plan, and the finances are not conducive towards that end. So it is what it is and I will make sure to visit that area when I do actually have the luxury to follow through on one of my life long dreams of visiting the East in Autumn.
In lieu of that, we are going to hop skip and jump on over to Florida, because after all our hard work and insane work schedules, we deserve to enjoy some serious down time.
My b/f's Mom lives by Cape Canaveral so we won't have to worry about paying for a room, and food expenses will be minimal except when we gorge ourselves on seafood at this wonderful establishment.
It is only going to be an extra 700 miles to our overall trip, and we can relax, hang out with my beau's Mother and get tans before finally heading home and getting back to looking for a job. At least now I am armed with couple new guns for my resume and even though this has turned out not being lucrative, or even close to it, I've acquired some very valuable experience that will hopefully elevate my applications above the rest. More specifically as I am applying to insurance related jobs, I can boast about knowing quite a bit about policies, insurance jargon, estimating software, and what have you.
So yeah, while I am a little disappointed with the outcome, I also have been humbled yet again by life and its unforeseeable perils. Pun intended. That being said, I cannot even express how much more confident I feel in my own abilities. This situation has been so exceedingly brutal, in so many ways, that it has challenged me as a person, as a partner, as a competent human being. And surprisingly, and I am not sure why this surprises me, the ability to adapt is so inherent in us all. Going forward, it is going to prove to be a very comforting thing to me, knowing that even while things may at any given time, prove seemingly insurmountable, I will overcome and it will get easier and I will look back on it wondering why I ever even doubted myself in the first place.
In some ways, this experience has been so enlightening and so eye opening, that I am afraid to go home and not be satisfied with the state of non-change I find things to be. I do feel like this has changed me, and in a way it has awakened something inside of me. I don't know exactly how to define it, but I am hungry. I am hungry for change, I am starving for value, I want to gorge myself on being purposeful in my actions. I am soo ready to work, to make money, to get on with the next step of my life! And I am open to doing that anywhere really. I love Colorado beyond comprehension, but after doing something like this, I feel this nomadic urge. I want to see more new places, experience more new cultures and get out of my comfort zone. There is something to be said for routine, but to be knocked out of that so abruptly and forced into a place of extreme pressure, the perceived threats of yesterday become the non-issues of today.
That being said, I've been applying to jobs whenever I get the chance, most of which are insurance type jobs, but anything really to get this ball rolling. In the meanwhile, I am going to concentrate on this mini-vacation we are heading on tomorrow and try to re-group, re-ground and re-vitalize for what lies ahead. I know I am going to need as much energy and motivation as I can possibly muster!